I miss those days where I used to be committed fully when I blog..

The usage of bombastic words was what I meant of cause.

Anyway , I've got two papers to go tomorrow.

Statistics and Chemistry.. :(

Both papers , I hope I do you good!!

I'm practically drowning in caffeine right now.

One high tall thermos filled with coffee.

Caffeine makes my heart beat like shit for no reason!!

Crazy I know , but I'm forced to.

Planned to stay awake till I finish both papers.

So friggin much more to go!!

Sweet Jesus.. bless me and the others as well!!!

All I need right now is more coffee and EMINEM to keep me awake!!

Fuckkk!!

I just felt like blogging today..

In fact I even started writing..

But in the midst of that , the people around me cant stop fucking bragging!!

Plus , my laptop is about to die and I cant be bothered to find the charger and fix it!!

For time being , I just need to be somewhere alone and peaceful..

To enjoy the good weather and also fucking express myself!!

Wearing skinny jeans..
Matched with sneakers..
With the hair down forever..
Not wearing make up..
Carry along the unpredictable attitude always..
Those are her trademarks And that's her..
Dont like it?
Then just fuck off..
But you know what?
Deep inside she cares..
Just too afraid of losing another worthless friend...

To you..
Falling in love is all about..
A pretty face..
Skinny structure..
Perfect hair..
And beauty comes before heart
Is it?

Couldn't be bothered to blog about you..
The good old times we shared together..
The laughter that sent pains to our stomachs..
And made our eyes tear..
Cause somewhere deep inside I know that you never cared..
And you'll never
You dont give a damn about it..
And it doesn't even matter to you.
So why should I make you my priority when I'm just your option?

Its sad when people you know become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them...

We always ignore the ones who adore us,
and adore the ones who ignore us.

This sounds crazy..
But the 2 minutes can do wonders to make me miss you.

All of a sudden..
I feel like taking a wrong bus and getting stuck somewhere I dont know..
All cold and alone..
Letting go what I've been holding on for so long..

Sorry folks.
I guess it's not tonight.
I'm up with several posts but I'm not so contented with posting something pictureless.
Will keep trying..

You loath me because you're jealous of something that I have and you don't.
It's simple as that loser.

Just for the sake of updating I would like to type whatever is running in my mind right now.
Well I've started studying back like after nearly 8 months of break.
Initially 8 months in the process of turning stupid.
I dont remember quite a number of decent thing.
Which eventually lead to severe frustration.
Each time I sit in the class during the lecture , I feel like giving my brains a massive twirl.
Seriously , who doesnt feel that way when you feel like you've read that particular subject somewhere but dont seem to get it.
GAH!!
This is so irritating.
Reading this post , I'm sure my parents would get very upset with me.
Literally like really really upset to this core.
They might just jump into a conclusion that I've turned up into a screw up after getting the first taste of freedom.
This post is so ironic if you were to compare me with the kind of kid I was back then in school.
Anyway , I'm not giving up and I will not.
As it's always said , something is not worthwhile when it's worth giving up.
Not forgetting that everything is worth a try...

Ipoh Mali Talak Sombong!

Hey bloggie! Hey hey bloggie.
Lol..how fandom?!
Looks dead in here..
I have loads of things in my mind practically.
I'm just not sure if I'm able to put all of them in words.
Let me start with my college first..
Hah what?!Lol..Yea I joined college already.
I'm currently doing my A-levels in Science at Disted , Penang.
Whenever I tell people that I'm already in Penang , they kept asking me questions like " why Penang but not KL" , "Woah! So far meh?!"..
Ermm..all I gotta say is get an atlas my friend.
Lol..farneyy! I get the fact that many people address me as a party animal (even my fam) but it's not like I'll be doing it "25/8"!!Apart from that , I found a few friends who're undoubtedly friggin awesome.
And heck yeah , I love my dorm man!!
They have no rules there and there is no time restriction.
Get that? NO TIME RESTRICTION!
Any how I'm back in my Ipoh now.
Yeah Ipoh where hottest people hail from!
And the only reason I'm here is because I gotta grab my SPM books and also my certs.
Not forgetting that I missed my Caesar boy to the core! *Sampai nak menangis sudah*
But the journey from Penang to Ipoh..
Damn damn damn!! So tiring yo.
From the Rapid to the ferry and to the bus...grrr!
But I had some friends with me at that time.
So I didn't feel like awkward and lost..Lol thanks to them.
Anyways I'm returning Penang tomorrow all ALONE!
Let's see how it's gonna turn out.

As of now it is the month of June in the year of 2010 , it is a quiet night on the 12th and my mind is running errands to overcome the anxiety problem I'm facing now that makes me call of as a jerk.
I do lots of things hidden and most of them are kept as a secret.
Sorry folks.Some things are always kept unsaid.
But I'm feeling blessed pretty much that I'm still alive and kicking.
If no one would every cry or miss me when I'm gone , trust me I would be happier.
I can always come up with an articulating plan of my own and as I wish.
You might think I'm very selfish , but look no further , I am one.
It makes me wiser I suppose.It gives me better nourishment.
Remember , in the end you will be back stabbed or even left feeling unappreciated.
Those good Samaritans you always hear don't exist in the real world morons.
My soul itches to face the reality which is the most awaiting mystery , as cliche as it sounds.
Just to prove that fact right , I'm not even crying now.
Nah ah!! Not even a single tear.
WTF?! I'm leaving a place called home and I'm not crying?
Leaving my family , friends and pets behind yet still no sobbing?!
Or is it the mixed up feeling of leaving made me ecstatic?!
No..this is just the eccentric me.
Now that sounds like me..

Eeeee..
I'm so addicted to that "budak"!!
The song he sang kept running in my head..
His perfection is always in my perception.
Loads of money , cool cars , flawless looks , talented..
Good life..

Stop Reduce the intake of candies , marshmallow and wafers to get rid of the fats.
Sleep for only 6 hours 8 hours for more obvious cheek bones.
Stay away from nap to avoid a blotted face!!
Increase the intake of water to burn fats and health purposes.
Replace coffee with carrot juice+milk for breakfast to improve my perception.
Do not shove take anything after 8 p.m as our metabolism slows down.


P/S : GAH!! I'm determined. Must be 40 kg by August. If I can lose 7 kg in 4 months then 4 more kg shouldnt be a problem. Hear now. I've given my oath. Healthy living here I come.

Another mild and not-so-exciting Monday!
So the vaccine is all injected into my system now , leaving me feeling screwed up all day long.
I can't even raise up my hand!!
Lol..
It aches like hell , like as if the needle hit my bone.
Gah!!
It's normal I know.
But it's so much better now after mummy patted my hand with towel soaked with warm water.
Fuish!
And from this you can see that I'm taken care of to the level of infinity.
I just don't know how I'm gonna leave all my beloved to the fairly decent college.
I wish I just lived in metropolitan where I can find a college nearby and just drive there every single day.
Add now when I say this , a big question related to freedom might just pop out.
Just to make things clear , freedom is not a superior thing in my life anymore.
Not that I'm not getting any of them now.
It's just that I'm happy living like this now.
Life's good as long as it puts a curve on your face.
I like my life.
At some point everyone has to get out of the house and find a decent living on their own right?
But it's always good to have your family around you most of the time.
You'll feel secured and confident 25/8!!!
At least I feel that though.

What a fucking bad day?!
I effin forgot my phone code.
Sent it to reprogramme.
Now the shop owner is gonna think that it's a stolen phone.
To put it in layman term , I literally "ranjau-ed" the phone from someone or somewhere , which is utterly bogus + bullshit.
Needless to say , my Indian parents jumped into a conclusion saying that I'm trying to hide "something" , and that's the reason why a password is set?!
FARKKKKK!
And they kept poking fun on me for no reason.
Not forgetting , driving me up the wall by kept reminding me about my songs and pictures which are yet to be missed ?!
But the fact that my iTunes is more updated than my mobile kept me going , literally helps me to endure the rest of the day till it ends and gave me the strength to stand till 5 p.m tomorrow so that I could go and collect my baby :p
But I thank my dad from the bottom of my heart for lending me his old phone where I'm not even bothered to know what model it is.
Thanks dad *grins*

I didn't want to make the appearance.
I never want to come back.
I wanted to let go the old memories.
I wanted to set you free.
Without realizing that I was apparently setting my own soul on fire.
Then I realized that I'm empty without you.
The face I looked in the mirror is just not the same anymore.
It will never be the same anymore.
I'd walk away if it was anybody but you...

Thank you suckers for reading my previous post and giving it a hint on your statuses.
Look , it's not for everyone okay.
And I get the fact that everyone is just not the same.
If even you're an asshole , it's not of my fucking business as long as people of your kind don't stir my life.
I cant help much on your guilty pleasure unless you're the "kind" I mentioned earlier.
Drastic Times Call For Drastic Measures!!!
To say it in an non-professional , "Siapa yang makan cili , dia yang rasa pedas".
Did I pull it off with my national language?
Lol.


P/S : Do not stalk my blog. Even if you do , shut the fuck up and get over with my sarcasm.If I made you to feel guilty , then hang yourself or jump into the river. I don't mind. Just don't be a hypocrite.